No Blog for a long time i wud say

Let me just s'plain...ohh no no there is too much let me just sum up :P

Before & during Ramadhan

Thing's just don't go well, Ema(my sis cum my babysitter)wanted to go back to Myy really bad & I was so sad to let her go as my lil saif is very close to her then i've to take unpaid leaves for 4 days because aku kenak search tmpt org yg boleh jaga & nursery will be the last choice then thanks Allah ada one of my friend of friend pun sister sanggup jaga after tht we try hantar saif that day mula2 he's excited sbb ada geng (anak kakak tu gegirl umur 2 thn) so i guess shud be no prob la kot then knw wat? xsampai pun sejam kakak tu sms/call ckp kesian tgk saif nangis smp sedu2 pastu hempas2 badan ...

And i was like Ya Allah sine la aku mok antar saif , its really hard to htr nya ke nursery nang ku sik sanggup pun kakya sampe jak umah kakak ya saif hulur tangan nya nangis2 sedu2 ...my tears begenang eyhhh sik sanggup nangga anak ku nangis kedak ya gilak ....

then balit umah try plak kat nursery sik jauh dr rumah masa msk jak dlm nursery ya saif keep on teriaking/ckp2 bhs baby nya/syok sendiri tgk ramai kawan2 ... at first i dont want to leave him but hubby padah no choice then balit umah kan...aku sik tentu ddk/bdiri la mcm2 la aku polah suma tak kena & i keep on calling the nursery asking saif checking him if nya nangis ka sik dh mkn ka sik dh tido ka sik but the indon girl keep on saying that saif's playing with frens & he's happy & he dont want to nenen,eat & sleep and again i was worrying sbb nya sik nenen/sik tdo/sik mok makan after 1 hr later i decided to go and fetch him sbb hati aku sik tenang kat umah dok pk saif ....sampe jak nursery again my baby is crying really bad sampe tangan nya menggapai kat aku ...aku terus hug him so tight ...(huhuhu no my tears falling down)

aku dah ilang akal nk antar nya ke sine then my friend of a friend ya tek call me back padah mak nya pun sanggup jaga ....we decided to send saif the next day & ngam2 ema pulang ke myy that day .....again i was stress+so sad+no mood at all...sbb ema dh lamak jaga saif & stay with me for about 1 yr aku asa sedey2 sgt ntah la aku tgk bilit nya dh suram jak :( k

then next day pun kisah plang after antar ema ke lcct awal pagi kmk org 3 balit umah tdo balit smpe kol 1030 nearly 11am antar saif ke umah makcik ya dlm kol 12 - 1 la kut then saif dah nampak sik suka/tauk kmk org mok antar nya tmpt lain ...nya xmau pijak pun lantai umah makcik ya,makcik ya mok amik nya pun nya peluk sekuat kuat badan ku....aduhhh duhhhh masa tok la hubby decided we've no choice but to send him to myy...(masa ya aku sik pk pjg aku akot jak ckp nya) that;s mean i've to pisah bfeeding juak ngannya ...:(( again i was so sad .....

we fly to myy the next day that is on friday for early flight 720am & that was the last saif isap susu ku dlm plane...(aku sik sangka juak that was the last :| ) hmmm....at myy aku try not to close with him ...aku jalan ng anah(my bff)& more spending my time with anah la kut & aku buat sik gago ngannya (tp sakit oooooo..huk huk) mlm jumaat ya aku sik nyusukan nya then nya ngamok/nangis ...kesian lalu ku ngannya sampe aku pun nangis sik tahan ku tp mak byk kali advise aku its for his own gud bila di myy kelak...aku obey tp sakit lagiiiikk :(

mlm yang ke 2nd aku sik juak bg susu saif still ngamok/nangis carik aku/susu dada ...kesian sik ng saif :(( sorry syg, mama tpaksa even mama sik sampe ati syg then the next day mlm ya is my flight back to kl ....that was again so sad....saif sik tauk nya akan bpisah ng aku mlm ya nya really happy masa htr aku ke airport ....mmg nya happy sampe airport ya dipusing nya dijalan nya & beteriak la nya...i was so happy looking him happy juak ...tp yala aku mmg sakit/sedehh......then sampe kl pkl 1am after ya pagi ya juak start working after a long leaves :( ....day after day day after day until current I'm so missing my lil saif so badly ....& counting days to go back myy...today masuk 6 days to go....aights i guess sum up tok bukan sum up lagi tapi essay :PP okay need to go tomorrow nak sahur lagi keja lagi (the same old day)


mama missing her lil saif :|